Trial By Fire

Today was very challenging. All week long I was unable to do my daily reports. The lesson : Going with the flow. I was fine until the day the toner was to arrive passed & the person ordering was being less than forthright. I have a problem with people withholding knowledge knowing updates will assuage others' stress. I was also working on getting new PC systems up & running so they will be ready when Training Day starts Dec 1st. Add to this mix, next week is a short week so I was feeling the Crush "Am I going to get this Done". I went to speak to 2 close friends & warm & fuzzy feelings were not available. They were right up my Holiday alley of Family of origin. I'm lucky I realized what was happening; so I started to re parent myself with positive sentences i.e. "I love you Kerry" & "You're a good girl" in a "mantra-like repetition" One friend came to see me & apologized. I really appreciated the heartfelt gesture. The Inner Child still feels the anger/fear based energy, as it went to my Core. I walked my 40 minute home stretch & turned it into a Physical meditation repeating the positive thoughts over & over again while the walking helped integrate the healing mental & emotional thoughts into my body.
My Body always picks up change in my life before my mind. I believe it's because the body locks in the memories of all emotional feelings & senses what's coming up before the Logical brain can decipher what the feeling is. I felt this yesterday on my walk to the bus I was unable to pinpoint the hit exactly; however I usually know it is going to be emotional.
Okay I'm really tired & it's time to take really good care of Me.
Plan: a nice long Hot shower & to bed early.

Universe Is Known For Kicking Butt

I have noticed when I'm not moving energy blocks quickly enough Universe will kick my butt and believe me it hurts on most levels. I have been consistantly avoiding doing my work to get the new job. Procrastination is a great way to build energy & drop kick you into where you need to be. Yes you get there, unfortunately you feel like Shark Chum in the process. When it's a Core Block (family of Origin programming) I intuit that I'm getting ready to go through something big, for me usually Emotional. Sometimes on a conscious level I'll start avoiding the work like "time constraints" or I'll bargain and then not follow through. When too much time has been spent avoiding the work, the work comes to me. All levels start creating in Tandem; Spiritual brings the lesson into the Physical which continues to the Mental and Emotional. My big lessons come as a personal interactions that hook my Core Blocks. When processing the energy, it literally feels like someone is scratching my chest from the inside out, old programming keeps poking me as I process the interaction through discussion, different perspectives come up clarifying the mental hurdles and help Heal the Block. This time Reclaiming Personal Power. To insure I get the lesson on all levels I exercise, this helps anchor the Lesson into reality & completes the balance.

Reclaiming Personal Power: Visualize taking back all your energy from the person, place or thing; then return all of the energy not yours back to the source of your fear, pain, anger etc

Protection: Surround yourself with a Golden Dome & visualize Seraphim surrounding you.

Death's Tapping My Shoulder

This year I have been picking up on People's Death Transition right & left, more so the last month; coworkers, friends of family, friends of friends etc ... Most people are given a sign when something precognitive comes up, mine for a death transition is my knees go weak or buckle depending how emotionally effected I am by the loss of the person. The Death Transition happens within a week usually less, shortest was 3 hours, unless I am contacted by the person who died & then close to the time of death.